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2011-09-11T18:34:00.000-07:00

Oh god, have not blogged for ages.

Exams are over, results out this friday. I don't think I did well. I know that I don't stand a high chance of getting at least 3.0, because stupid me got so affected by stupid things and thus, I let my studies get affected. Next semester, that is going to change. I will study consistently next semester, make sure I get all my projects completed early and get them done well. And make sure I choose my groupmates wisely. No more groups with all guys, does not work that well.

Today, I'm gonna stay home. For once. I wanna sleep. And watch a few movies too.

Thats it for today. See you tomorrow

2011-08-05T09:50:00.000-07:00

Wednesday
Went for tennis at 8, went to the library after tennis till 3, where I attempted to study but failed! Then went for gym at 3, to makeup s&w. Then at 5, met terrence for awhile, and kimberly. Went home at around 6 to celebrate dad's birthday. His side came over ): I was texting people the whole way, did not really bother. The only person I talked quite alot to was aunty kim! Other than that, me and mom were gossiping and texting each other. I was texting people too

Thursday
Woke up for stats. Got there at 10 to find that lecture had ended. So went to the library to revise bmgt. Then went to bmgt tutorial, found out my marks! I got an A! And my component, got the full marks (: Thanks Sizhen! (: After that, went to meet Sizhen, tingfong, minji and brendon for lunch! Usual thursday! (: I love my family. Tecktonik! Then went for infa lecture where I slept and then went to the library with terrence, val and meiffi to study. Studied till 9 and then went home and crashed

Friday
Got up, went for B stats tutorial. I did not pay attention! I was practicing my own! I got alot to catchup for stats! And after that, went to meet tingfong for awhile and skipped lunch. Then it was econs tutorial, where I understood monentary policy! Hehehehe! Then was makeup s&w till 5, then went to find Donavan! Went to munch to eat, went for some air and then went to mug econs!

Okay, very brief post from a very tired idiot. Shall blog more tomorrow

2011-08-02T11:58:00.001-07:00

I miss you guys ):

2011-08-02T11:51:00.000-07:00

Hello.

So woke up at 8.30 and got ready. Headed down to ourspace to do final preparations for DSS PBL 2 presentation. Presentation went quite smoothly. KK leong says we got an A! (: But I got a feeling that someone from my group marked me down for peer evaluation. I don't know who, but just a strong feeling that I got marked down by somebody. Oh well ): Then after presentation, went to meet Tingfong for awhile, and watch him do his BComm presentation. After which, I went to Business Managment Lecture. Sat with terrence and val again, and we did not pay attention at all. That boring woman lecturer really can bore you. I slept for half an hour and when I woke up, val said that I did not miss anything! Boring! And after that was to the library to mug. Mugged BMGT and revised B Stats. Got so much catching up to do! So little time! No more fooling around. Serious mode now on!

S&W, How!? I don't wanna re-take. Need to makeup this week! ): Ugh. Not gonna sleep. Scared I won't wake up. Next semester, no 8am classes! GAH!

2011-08-01T07:50:00.000-07:00

Okay, wow, three days never post already.

Saturday
First, woke up extremely late for tution! Hahaha, ended up changing it to 4pm. So I did nothing for the entire day. Just waited for nat and joshua for tuition then we went down for the gathering, or the so-called surprise party for my dad who's birthday is this wed. So, saturday was a boring day. Hahaha. I did not sleep on sat night because by the time I felt sleepy was 3.30am and I knew that If I had slept, I would not have woken up for mass.

Sunday
Served 7.30am mass, and it was damm shocking that there were so many servers! 10 servers, for once! During mass I could understand most of it, and I did not screw up my concecration bell because I finally know when to ring! And oh yeah, I did not get cut! But Chris Ng commented that my ringing is damm loud. Hahahaha! And the rest of the day was spent at the funfair, selling cookies! And to advertise, I had to carry ethan, my junior, on my shoulders and go: Whoever buys our cookies and supports the altar servers gets to keep this boy! Hahaha, it was painful to have a kid on my shoulders for so long but I had fun! Chris Chok had fun too, with Marcus Liow and Geraldy, but he did not carry them! Hehehe, how useful cute little boys can be to the servers (: And then, after the funfair, we had that little meeting that the exco is disolved for now so that greg can form his own leading team. I hope I remain in Mass/Special mass because I think that's what I do best. But I'll support greg all the way too (: Then after that went to the Soh's place to chill for awhile then I left with zack koh because I had to go for Mitchell's farewell and Zack had alot of work to do. Ended off my day with a bbq for mitchell, before he goes in on wednesday.

Today
Woke up at 8, went late for econs lecture. Slacked till 12, went for infa tutorial. And then it was off to the library to meet brendon and study. Terrence and Wayne lee came to join me as well. I actually managed to focus quite well. Did Money for econs and prepared for my DSS presentation. Tomorrow. I hope I pull through. I did all that I could today. Ended studying at 9, waited for dom ho till 9.30, slacked for awhile and now I'm back home. Gonna head to bed soon, I'm really tired. Shall wake up to print all my notes and tutorials, which I have not been doing, at 4.30am. I'm too tired now

2011-07-29T08:02:00.000-07:00

Nothing much happened today. But today was such a good day! I finally met my tecktonik family! (: I really miss them! So that made today such a nice day! I miss seeing them all the time. Sunday I asked them to come for the funfair. We trying to meet up on sunday no matter what. Yay! I seriously hope after exams we will be back to meeting as often as we used to when school first started. Somemore we have BAOW 2012 to journey through together. So nice to see them after so long. It really made my week! Hahaha, I really love them.

2011-07-28T09:41:00.000-07:00

2011-07-28T09:36:00.000-07:00

I miss every little thing we used to do,
I miss feeling special for you,
I miss our long long talks and laughs,
I miss everything please bring it back

2011-07-28T09:24:00.001-07:00

EXAMS ARE COMING! ):

Yesterday was the Idea Jumpstart full day assestment. I think we did alright. It was like d&t all over again! Thanks to all who did the survey! It really means alot! (: Yesterday, I didnt study much. No energy. Did not sleep the night before. This is bad. I must try to sleep every night

Today I went for B-Stats lecture. I was on time! But I stoned and did not get anything out of it! Then was Business Managment. I kinda screwed up my presentation. I think I've got stage fright. I always blank out during important and formal presentations. I mispronounced alot of my words too! My classmates were laughing. Sigh, oh well, what's done is done. ): Had lunch with brendon and ahmeng. Bumped into elmo, and that was a first in one whole week! (: And i got laughed at because of my formal outfit! Hahaha! And after that, I slept throughout infa lecuture. And then went to do PBL and then study econs with terrence.

Okay, infa test tomorrow and 9am tutorial! Better not be late, shall crash now. Night!

2011-07-26T13:39:00.000-07:00

2011-07-26T08:55:00.001-07:00

“I-miss-you” because you blessed my heart with pure joy,
When you cared for me in my youth,
With a kind-spirited finger you touched my heart,
Now fingerprints of your legacy remain,
Engraved in the depth of my soul,
For that, I thank you,
Your selfless nature, if possible,
Would have moved mountains yonder,
Just to appease my needs, your deeds I honour,
With the lasting memories of grace,
And Of your undying love,
So I send my love through a dove,
Dove: filled with halos of your spirit passé,
The dove is these words of sonnet; this sonnet wears “I-miss-you”.

2011-07-26T08:34:00.000-07:00

Hello.

Nothing much today. Woke up late, when I planned to reach school at 9am to study and ended up going just in time for DSS! I hate that module! I realized, I need severe help for DSS, next week is presentation and I dunno alot of functions! How!? ): Need severe help. ): The hands on quiz also I cannot do ): Stress! ):

After DSS was Business Managment lecture. Sat with terrence and val. Val did nothing but play tetris! Terrence as usual, the kanchiong spider he is, was paying attention. And me, I was stoning.

Came out of lecture to see AUNTY SIM! HAHAHAHA! And I was called an aunty! Nicole Sim, you are the world's number one aunty! You cannot run away from that! (:

After lecture, spent about half an hour with the group to do the slides for this thursdays presentation. I'm nervous. I don't really understand alot of it. Sigh, why did we do such a complicated business. Nevermind. Over.

And after all that, went to the library to study with terrence. Then wayne lee came to join me, followed by aloysius! I actually managed to focus quite well today! So it was like the good old days back in St Pat's. Miss those times quite terribly. The transition from St Pat's to Poly is not an easy thing. It has alot of getting used to. Especially after 11 years in an all boy's school. There, you can do what you want. Here, you need to think twice before doing anything. Here, you have to really watch your behaviour. Sigh. But, all this needs time to adjust. Still not used to it. But life is about change as well.

Exams are coming. So many assestments are here. It's all at one shot. Such a stressful period. I'm so worried that I asked greg today for me to serve fixed 7.30am every week until the semester is over. Sigh. Who said that poly was slack? ):

And now, I shall crash.

I miss you. I miss the way we used to be. I wish we could go back and be what we were. I just miss you so much that it hurts.

2011-07-25T11:24:00.000-07:00

Hello Again!

It's been a gazillion years since I last posted! I think I need to blog more often. Use blogger as a diary for me to reflect everyday.

Semester one is halfway over. Poly life is very stressful! Even worse than O Levels! Especially if you're in a course like accountancy where everyone is so incredibly smart. After being one of the top in normal academic, I'm now struggling to survive. Projects can drive you mad! Not to mention this time of the semester where so many projects are due and end of semester exams are less than a month away! God, and I have not been mugging. I need the motivation I had when I was sec five back! But how? ):

But poly life has it's good points too! The people there are awesome. Especially my orientation group. We are not even from the same class and yet now, we can't live without each other! I really love them! They are like my family, or in fact they are. (: I miss them whenever I don't see them, especially now! Especially the usual six! Nevermind, I shall get to see them on thursday, and on sunday too! (:

School aside, life has been alright. Things could be better though. But nevertheless, life goes on. Servers is finally moving away from the mass rotation system! Finally! But thing is, I wanted to serve the 9am mass, but now, I feel like doing the 7.30am mass! Ya, the chinese mass! It's actually the best mass to serve, and your sundays are very long! But, I need to buck up my chinese! Alot! Shall do mandarin as an IS module next semester

Okay, I'm gonna crash. 2.30am now! I shall blog frequently from now on. (:

2011-02-06T20:43:00.000-08:00

As always, it's been long since I last posted.

I got into Ngee Ann Polytechnic! Yay me! So I am gonna study accountancy. Still thinking if I should be a teacher or just go into business. No matter what, there is really a need for me to study hard in poly and get a place at NUS or NTU. Hopefully I won't get too distracted from ensuring that my GPA does not fall. Preferably not below 3.8

Other than that, life has been usual. I started giving tuition already. So, I guess it's good, and a good way to earn income so that I won't feel guilty living off my parents too much. Need to save up for license too!

Chinese New Year just passed by, and it was alright I guess. Money was not that big this year but I still am happy with what I have. Gambling was fun too!

Yesterday, Nigel and Chris served 7am mass, as their final mass before they go into army this tuesday. Sad to see two of our brothers leave but well, the country has called. Well, they will still be there to help and hopefully serve once everything stabilizes. Also sad that Adriel and Andre got moved to section 7 because of the new mass. That means, from my group, 3 people are gone. Nevermind lah, servers still is improving.

Today, Im sick and will need to rest at home

It has hit me. I need to build up my fitness. 3 Years and I have to go for NS too. Need to be more fit. I've been told that likely I will get PES C because of my dyslexia, but still I need to start keeping fit. And loose weight too!

Okay, I really should get some rest. I need to get well

2011-01-19T10:23:00.000-08:00

Wow, it's really been long since I last posted.

Nothing much been happening lately uh. Still dunno if I'm gonna tutor as a job. But heck, it's a damm good way to earn income. Shall just sleep on this.

Oh yeah, O Level Results Are here!

English B3
Maths A2
Combined Science B3
Combined Humanities A2
POA A1
Dnt D7

L1R4 11 Points! 10 with deduction after cca. I've chosen Accountancy at Ngee Ann Poly as my first choice. Hope I get in! Hmm, not doing much today. Gonna rot at home and sleep in the morning, and maybe go find damien and paul in the afternoon. Need to start jogging too!

Off to bed

2010-12-24T10:20:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas!

Spent christmas eve at nana and boompa's place, as usual. The food was great! And had fun with my cousins. Then left at 10pm to rush down to church. Briefed the servers and then went out to slack. Midnight mass went very well! But seriously, I had a damm hard time controling myself! Because, in front of me was nicole, and next to me was John Lee! And damien too! Damm, but I still did it! Mass went well!

Lunch at godma's place later, and dinner at nan's. Can't wait for nat's chalet!

Oh, last but certaintly not least, Happy Birthday Natalie Ann Karl! Love yahhhh

2010-12-22T18:22:00.000-08:00

Damm, last time I posted was friday!

Christmas is around the corner. Helped mummy wrap presents the past few days. Monday was the only day that I stayed home the whole day. Tues I had to go serve wedding, then I actually went to the youth office to sleep. Yesterday, I went to queensway to buy my bag and then to the church bbq, which was okay, but had no alcohol. Today theres rehersal for midnight mass servers followed by outing to town with vanessa and chloe

love is to blame

2010-12-17T03:52:00.000-08:00

Time in Time I thought through it all

How we loved and loved

and how we fought each other

pushing one another

to be somebody else

2010-12-17T03:46:00.000-08:00

Today, I stayed home the whole day. First time in a long time that I stayed home. Needed to rest and recover from camp. Slept almost the whole afternoon. Still very tired. And I gotta settle weddings for tomorrow. FOUR WEDDINGS! JOHN LEE, YOU OWE ME BIG TIME HAHAHA!

I am supposed to have an outing with gavin, chloe and vanessa tmr. But now I don't know if it's gonna happen. Thanks JOHN LEE! HAHAHAHA

Just kidding John, though I may miss my plans, you know i love you :)

2010-12-16T07:44:00.000-08:00

Im back!

Server's camp was great. Good that all the younger servers got to bond. There were many touching moments, especially during affirmation on the last day, which was today. During the camps, mistakes were made, many by myself, but it no longer matters. The most important is to learn from them. A huge lesson I learnt is that one should think when he starts to feel pissed.

During camp, the night walk was a highlight for me. I used a teddy bear to distract the small ones. It was during the night walk when I realised how fun Marcus Leong (Marcus De Pee-doh) is to be around. Heck, it was the first time that i heard him talk so much, which really is a good thing, considering that he is sec 2 next year, has served for 4 years counting this year, and up till this point, has been someone who rarely talks. Good that he has learnt to be more outspoken. Marcus De Pee-doh! HAHAHA

On wednesday, I left camp in the afternoon to find with nat at her place and then to uncle ron's house for dinner. Great, because I needed a nap too, so fleeing to her place was good for me. Also, I needed a break, time to talk to one of my sisters. I mean, it is hard to spend 4 whole days with only boys! Then, I got to meet mummy and the rest of the family. Nat keeps calling me mummy's boy! Nat was supposed to bring rainbow cake and koi for me! Hahaha, and yes, because of the rainbow cake, I had sleepless nights!

Sleeping in the youth office also was good!

Okay, I am very tired. I Got back at 2pm and slept till 7pm, only to wake up to find that mummy ordered rocky's! Dammit, I really am a mummy's boy. I still am tired now

Time to schleep!

2010-12-10T06:51:00.001-08:00

Damm, it's been close to 5 months since I last posted

O Levels are finally over! Papers were managable, only physics was hard. But other than that, all went well. I think I should be able to score at least below 16 points

Strange though, I really do miss school. Sure, I did not get any studying done there, but I miss it! All the fun, the brothers, the laughs, especially from 5N2, it really has hit me that I really enjoyed all those times. Even the bad times, I still do miss. The most memorable was on the last day of school, where 5N2 made their mark on St Pat's History, by pulling the ultimate prank, whereby the entire class moved their classroom to the parade square. The teachers were impressed. Many teachers who were old boys said that it should have been done years ago! Even Lak found it hilarious,

So, now that O's are finally over, and holidays has begun, I've been sleeping quite alot. As well as going out with my bros and my sisters (not biological!). Have not found a job yet but heck, I think I'll start in January. Now is a time to enjoy life and to catch up on sleep!

Server's camp is coming up too! Will be at camp the whole of next week! It's strange though, of all the seniors, the laziest ones are actually doing all the work and planning for the camp. Yes, Myself, together with Paul, Damien and Darius have been doing all the work! So hopefully, the camp goes well. I can't wait for the opputunity to screw some of the younger servers! Some of them really need to wake up their idea. Many of them are rude to their seniors, and even to Aunty Julie!

Okay, so thats so far. Now for today.

Spent my day with Nat and Nicole today. Went to town and shopped! I bought two new topshop shirts! Hahaha, and had fried mars balls too, which by the way, is the sex! Had wendy's as well. And lucky for us, when we took 174, both to town and back, we managed to get the "Spaceship" bus!

And yes, I turn 17 in an hour's time :)

2010-07-20T05:43:00.000-07:00

Well, I could not study today.

I really want to do well for O Levels. But, somehow, I get distracted when I am studying. What point is there in being second in school for N Levels when your O Level results are so screwed.

Well, Finally parents have gotten me a science tutor. He's not bad actually, and he stays in Verde a well! But, time is really running out. 32 more days till prelims, and thats not counting English, which by the way, is not that easy.

The fact that the servers are now on a rotation system is kinda starting to take a toll on me. Every week we have to serve a different mass, just because people do not want to cooperate and help to serve the 7.30am mass or the Sunday 5.30pm mass. I myself do not mind serving the sunday 5.30pm mass on a weekly basis. I would not mind the 7.30am mass either, but it's ridiculous for me to have to attend 2 masses every week just because i don't understand mandarin. But having to change mass every week is very inconvenient. You always have to re-arrange your schedule. Im not complaining but I am saying that everyone should just pull your own load. It is really affecting those who are taking O levels this year.

That aside, things have not been too great lately. I am down with a cold and yes, I did not get any studying done today. I simply had no energy.

The d&t teachers are pressuring us to submit our coursework by the end of the month when the actual submission date is on 27th August! How Ridiculous. I definitely can meet the 27th August deadline but I doubt that I can finish by the end of the month. Only 11 days left in July.

To make things worse, It is IMPOSSIBLE to study in my class. I really think that the school made a HUGE MISTAKE by combining the class. It is just way too big. I don't have a problem with the people in my class, they are wonderful people in fact. What I have a problem with is the class size. And unlike last year, my class people are not that focused. At this time last year, most of them had already woken up. Well, no point complaining. Just have to make the best out of it.

Study Study Study. It's just a few more months of slogging before you are free

2010-06-07T18:41:00.000-07:00

And I am back.

Well, life officially sucks. I have to go to school for d&t later because Mr Soh called my parents and they are like forcing me to go. This is really something stupid. I already had planned to study Detterence and Diplomacy for Social Studies and Deforestation in Kalimatan for geog but now my plan is gone. I hate it when I block off my time to do something and al of a sudden, something comes up at the last minuite. To make things worse, I am going to paris next week, and that alone will eat up much of my study time

I don't understand why the all of the d&t teachers act as if O levels is just about d&t. True, the coursework is not something that you can mug for at the last minuite, and I know that. But that does not mean that the other subjects should be neglected either. It may not be as dangerous to study at the last minuite for other subjects as compared to doing your coursework at the last minuite but no matter what, the danger is still there. No subject should be blown off to the last minuite. The worst part is that i decided to make something simple for my artefact, which is the advisable thing to do so that you can clear your coursework as soon as possible, and not do something that is not within your capabilities, but my material list got rejected for being too simple. Imagine, you have 40 sketches for your ideation, but none of them please the coursework teacher as they are either too simple or not within your capability. So what, you rather me make something simple, make it look nice and at least make the passing mark, or still carry on generating ideas, not get your materials, not submiting an artefact at all and be at a high risk of failing the entire subject? It's already june and yet I do not have my materials. Even if I submit a simple artefact and not score well at that component, I can at least use paper 1 to pull up my average. But if I don't submit an artefact at all, I would highly likely fail the entire subject, and paper1 won't be able to help much.

Most parents would be trying to convince their children to study hard and do well for their O levels. Parents who have kids who are hardworking would do their best to help that hardworking child, so that he can fully maximise his potential. Mine on the other hand prevent me from doing my best. I already told them that i do not want to travel during the june holidays as i would like to play catchup for O's. But no, they just had to decide at the very last minuite to go to paris, and eat into my study time. I don't understand why it is so easy for them to spend thousands of dollars to go overseas, which we can live without, but it is so difficult for them to just spend less than a thousand dollars on getting me a chemistry tutor for the next 5 months, when they know that I am failing my chemistry. There is only one chance for one to do O levels, but there will be many other opputunities to go overseas! I dont understand the lodgic behind all this. And in spite of spending unnecessary money on going overseas, they nag at me about my expenes. They scold me whenever i switch on the air conditioning to study and they tell me that money does not fall from the sky, so i should save electricity. The worst part is that I don't know how to tell them that I don't want to go as I know that they will say that I am being selfish and that I do not act as if I am part of the family.

I really do not know what to do with my life anymore

First in a million years

2010-06-07T05:32:00.000-07:00

Hello Mr Blog, Long time No See

So, i have deleted all previous posts. I want to start afresh. There is hardly going to be time to blog this year but i shall try my very best to post when I do find the time. It is the june holidays now and no, that does not mean that there is time to play. It means that it is time to get serious about doing well for O levels. People now expect so much out of me just because I got 8 points for N's but the thing is, O's is totally different, and there is much more competition.

I think that as much as people do expect alot out of me now, I do need to get serious. The need to remember that there is only one chance to do O levels and it's just a few months more of slogging and if persevered, reaps a lifetime of rewards.

Studies aside, times change, and so do people. Some foes have been turned into friends, which is indeed, a good thing. Some friends have been led astray or have changed for the worse and all that one can do is to pray that such people will come back. Special people have lured their way into the hearts of one, which indeed brings one great happiness

Besides all that, life still goes on. I still have to go to school, go to church, go for tuition, and have my social life. Indeed, life goes on, though with many changes.